Natendo, in a few short years I will be thirty. In my entire time alive on this planet I have made more mistakes and committed more sins (Yes yes I know you don't jive with my worldview, but just bear with me.) than I care to count. Some small, some colossal, some that emotionally scarred everyone near and dear to me, some that threw my entire life off track. It's not only the scars that remain, but the living fallout of my error that clings about me some days.
But I endure. Because I know I am capable of being a better man than I was the day before, whatever depths I sank to then. Because Mercy, however rare, is in fact a real and powerful thing. Because I'm a rational creature who can learn from his mistakes and have a chance to avoid them next time, or if Providence allows, make reparations, should I be so blessed.
It is human nature to err consistently. You've managed to be unfair to a chunk of people on a RWBY RPG website. Okay, yes, it sucks. To you it might even suck a whole lot, given some of what I've seen in your AMA. But it is not the End. Even if you had been the man who shot Saint John Paul II, if you had been the man who brutally stabbed twelve-year-old Saint Maria Goretti and left her to die for not sleeping with him, it would not be the End. The shooter was forgiven and blessed by the man he tried to murder. The girl's murderer, while serving time, had a conversion and was there for her canonization in the Vatican. He lived out the rest of his days caring for monks in a monastery and did not return to wickedness.
If THESE people can rise from such gratuitous and horrific acts, I doubt your failings on this site will be harder to amend. So stop shitting on yourself. It accomplishes nothing. RISE.